the dark streets of decay 4

oh how i use to believe

in things i could not see

 

now all that i see

holds nothing i want to believe

 

i’m back on the sidewalk

it was dark when i woke up

 

i didn’t want to drink

but beer was my breakfast

and a cigarette my desert

 

i am not helpless

and i do not want anything from you

so judge if you must

but you’re indignation exposes your ignorance

 

believe what you believe and give it your whole being

you do not want to be an unbeliever

 

there is no rain tonight

i’m just walking

eating a protein bar

and thinking about my next cigarette

 

it’s been a long time since the sidewalks weren’t wet

and i’m rather enjoying this evening

 

i don’t like being alone

but how could i be anything but

my hobby is picking at my skin till it bleeds

and not making eye contact

 

i’ve reached the right buzz

and i just want the laws of physics to be repealed

and all these torn pieces of flesh to heal

on these dark streets of decay

 

the night is magic

the sky is clear

the stars diminished by the city lights

and i just want to go home

 

no purpose as i roam

no gravity equaling force times whatever

just me

sidewalks, darkness, beer and solitude

 

i am never rude

politeness is how you can hide in plain sight

it is just another night

and i am just going to go home

stare at the dark walls in my apartment

and drink

 

and sometimes think

about arms around me

how they catch fire

flames consume

and leave nothing but an unidentifiable corpse

but what a way to go…

 

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