the dark streets of decay 16

project pitchfork plays

the rain mimics my mood

pounding the patio

where i sit

 

my hand is clothed

with a can of beer

besides that nothing

adorns my flesh

 

jenny joins my gloom

oversized sweat shirt

baggy jeans

bare feet

 

her nails scrape

the back of my neck

jolting me out of my brooding

 

within moments

she is as naked as me

flesh flexing in the flood

of puddles that pattern

the patio

 

then she is inside

toweling herself dry

encasing her form

in clothing

 

i light another smoke

open another beer

project pitchfork plays

“rain”

 

while i wear the weather

on my wet skin

 

lately i have lingered in the land

of sobriety

but not tonight

 

my heart is not decaying

with the streets

 

jenny has filled my life with meaning

and time spent sober (mostly)

has helped quiet the screams

 

but it is not as if i am reborn

i’m still the man who wrote “torn”

and tonight the only thing

that can spell relief

is this beer buzz i feel encroaching

 

hunters are always poaching

the dark jungles of my mind

but they will never find

a way to make me recant

what i wrote during my stay

on the dark streets of decay

 

god is spirit

does not possess physical form

hands, feet, a face

so we will never be able to see

eye to eye

 

recently i reread the dark streets of decay

and saw how much i prayed

for love

 

jenny is the answer to that prayer

but that is all i have to share

as theology

 

the rain may be falling on me

but it will never make me clean

 

i meant what i wrote

and i wrote what i meant

and jenny may be heaven sent

but i am still the author of

the dark streets of decay

 

and even though i couldn’t stay

(nihilism is not a philosophy

that one can live by and live)

i will not take away

one word from that book

never say i was wrong

or i’m sorry

 

and believe me i do not worry

that i will answer for my answer

 

the beer is here

jenny is near

and the rain is the only sound i hear

 

i am just enjoying

and will hold all questions

until the seminar is over

 

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