after midnight

i guess the doctor was right

i have hypoglycemia

spikes and lows in my blood sugar

 

that move me to different emotional extremes

i thought my rage was because

there is so much to be angry about

and my indifference

was when i remembered i’m a nihilist

and just don’t care

cause it just doesn’t matter

 

but

 

i was coming around a corner

when an onset of rage overtook me

and there was a man coming in my direction

just a few feet from me

 

and suddenly my fists were flying

 

a left hook

an uppercut

a jab

a right cross

 

with the speed

all those years on the speed bag gave me

and all the strength

lifting weights has given me

 

and he hit the ground

and i kept on walking

 

then

when i was a few miles away

i realize what i had done

and couldn’t understand why

 

yes i’m drunk

but i’ve been drunk before

(o.k. every night)

and never did this sort of thing

 

and i can tell it was

something as simple and as stupid  

as a spike in my blood sugar

 

time to take myself home

and google this disease

 

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