vertigo

earlier this year

i had my first onset of vertigo

it came for a day

went away

 

almost came back

almost

 

then a couple days ago

took over my mind

and i can’t stop being dizzy

 

went to the doctor

barely able to walk

but he kept staring

at my muscled form

through my tight shirt

his eyes were a page

that is easy to read

“this guy is in too good

of shape to be sick”

 

and like all the women

i have known

he kicked me to the curb

 

got home and googled vertigo

and realized i’m screwed

as far as there being anything to do

 

i probably should have told the doctor

about my nose bleed a few days back

seemed like there was no reason

for the blood to flow

other than a dry wind

seemed inconsequential

 

oh well

it has helped keep me sober

i already got the spins

don’t need a bottle of gin

to feel fucked up

 

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