nothing will be revealed

To let understanding stop at what cannot be understood is a high attainment. Those who cannot do it will be destroyed on the lathe of heaven –Chuang Tzu

 

i know i am not wise

but i can’t decide

if these words are nonsense

or tantamount to truth

 

the second half of the last century

we waited for the world

to become a wasteland

 

it was in the literature

the films

the political mindfuck

with which they frightened us

 

that was our false reality

and every decade

the drug of choice changed

 

fringe music waited for an apocalypse

till it’s fans turned twenty

and money made it bearable

so a new music sound

sounded the alarm

 

now i couldn’t tell you

what’s going on

i live like a hermit

in a house of hostility

 

no longer seeking wisdom

or who has the truth

because …

oh, haven’t i already said all this?

 

this isn’t bliss

but what is?

and if it can’t be attained

why travel its sign laden highway?

 

i’m so burned out on

your highway hypnosis

travel as you say

to find the way

because there is a way

that all should travel

and it is as you say

and then one day

all will be revealed

 

you will be justified

and i will be mortified

god will declare you god

and your judgment will be just

because i did not

come and bow before the throne

of your ego while we were alive

 

go thrive

leave me in this dive

where it’s one sign,

“don’t drink and drive”

holds no relevance for me

because i don’t own a car

 

anyways what i mean to say

is when you kneel and pray

don’t pray for me

 

when the synapses in my brain

stop firing

i will cease to exist

in all totality

 

nothing more

but decay

and whether i’m cremated

or laid in a grave

all that is still around

will still be in decay

until everything

goes away

 

you don’t have to agree

just let me be

i will live according to my belief

that it doesn’t matter what i do

i will not be saved

by what you crave

the world to be

 

someone once talked me into

the kingdom of heaven

and then someone came

and talked me right out

 

i have chosen

the dark streets of decay

as my way

so please just go away

 

it’s late and i’m loaded

and all your litanies

will not leverage

i will not put down

the beverage

and be what you suppose

no matter how perfect the rose

i’ve seen it wither

crumple and decay

it did not take a

nuclear winter

just the natural order

of things

 

and the wisdom it brings

about inevitable decay

and the end of all things

and if we live beyond

the cessation of being

it’s not what i believe

 

so go live as your beliefs dictate

and i will live according to mine

 

i’ll shut up if you will

 

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