the dark streets of decay 15

i did nothing today

i will do nothing tonight

i’ve nothing to say

to make things right

 

what are concepts?

love, acceptance, free will?

they are not atoms

they do not appear

on the periodic chart of elements

 

one could say they do not exist

or at best they are perceptual

I DON’T FUCKING KNOW

 

in junior high school

they tested my IQ

i scored a 99

the counselor said

i was retarded

 

it was the best lesson

i ever learned in school

that those who pigeon hole

are brainwashed fools

 

so i walk these streets

without any belief

only knowledge

 

i learned the bible

then learned comparative religions

then philosophy

then science

 

and found that a heart

is never broken

if we just fucking masturbate

 

genetic traits

molecules

models of deep space

conviction that requires sacrifice

 

i would pay the price

if i were convinced

but, in truth,

i am so over it

 

leave me alone

let me roam

not all who wander

are lost

 

but free

to experience pleasure

without scales

with which we must weigh

every goddamn fucking thing

 

so i leave this bar

light a smoke

laugh at a joke

and stay away

from anyone

who does not believe in my

dark streets of decay

 

which essentially means

i stay away from everybody

 

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