lyrics of the lie

lining all my pockets with essentials of the night

a flask, a pack of cigarettes, a lighter that will light

checking for my debit card and wallet filled with cash

the sunrise will discover that my body’s turned to ash

 

the bars i hit will not acquit my memories of you

there’s no restraint without a taint of what i will construe

for shoeboxes of destiny are filled with photographs

your face i trace with tender grace as reach exceeds the grasp

 

i walk and drink whiskey and think about all that we were

i’ve read the words of gods and men but still i am unsure

‘bout the reasons for the seasons if there’s reason at all

late afternoons within your room are what i best recall

 

i’m five beers in and switched to gin but nothing can compare

to those quiet late afternoons when we would just lay there

i’ve been with women since you left and sometimes close my eyes

but still they will not feel like you no matter how i lie

 

then you came back but i in fact learned why i let you leave

you were in love with everything, well everything but me

and so tonight i drink and write and walk these late night streets

my claim to fame is victory by letting the deceit

convince my mind that i am fine without you everyday

but all i ever do is drink and watch l. a. decay

 

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