late night liberty

after some coffee

and a boiled egg

i lifted weights

putting more weight

on than usual

 

afterward i crawled

back into bed

and the cat

joined me

we slept

 

i dreamt i was

killing zombies

with my samurai sword

 

i woke in my world

of no expectation

drank a beer

dressed

and started walking

 

i hit one bar

but it was late

and closing soon

but i was buzzed

by last call

and walked out

indifferent as always

 

if you are still reading

you know this is

a philosophy for me

 

that there is nothing

in the heavens

but molecules and atoms

and even less then that

on earth

 

there is nothing to

give my life worth

just the moment i am in

and these are the moments

i enjoy

way past midnight

on cold quiet streets

(well as quiet

as l. a. can be)

 

drunk and still drinking

and not denying

that drunk is what i enjoy

and walking

in the late night hour

whether moonlight

or april showers

 

i am where no one

else wants to be

because of all they believe

for me

the darkness helps

hide the decay

 

so i’m on my way

to no where

and you know what?

i feel free

and

(wait for it)

happy

 

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