determinant

days are long

nights are longer

what does not kill

makes us stronger

 

table for one

i am undone

i may be john

but i’m not donne

 

i lie alone

upon the floor

no such thing

as virgin whores

 

but i don’t care

not at this point

there is no panel

to appoint

 

the sheets unclean

upon my bed

i crawl into

and lightly tread

 

all the answers

left unsaid

i need not hear

upon this bed

 

all i want

yes what i mean

is female arms

within this scene

 

not for a night

but just for me

she’ll fight the fight the fight

so we will be

 

throw my doubts

back in my face

rub so hard

it will erase

 

all the lines

that i will draw

even if she must

slap my jaw

 

within the fight

that i will need

to prove each night

what is decreed

 

that she is here

because of love

and it’s me

she’s thinking of

 

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