the missing element

naturally occurring elements

and

elements that  are synthesized

in other words

they don’t exist in nature

 

designer atoms

 

i haven’t drank much the last few nights

i’ve stayed in

had a beer now and then

and tonight i’m sober

 

the rainy season

isn’t the reason

the past few months

i’ve lived in the rain

 

i wasn’t searching for meaning

how can there be

if there is no one

to orchestrate?

 

no flow

no fate

and unknown origins

 

how i wish a burning bush would prove me wrong

among this endless rain burning strong

bringing me to my knees

 

i watch the rain from my balcony

holding a hot cigarette on a cold night

it was raining when you left

which is good

cause no one can tell you are crying in the rain

 

but those days i never really want to think about

 

i toss my cigarette into the rain swept street below

and decide to join it

shoe my feet

hit the street

and scream

“if you stand in the rain no one can tell you are crying!”

 

the nearest bar is a cantina

they have imported beer, margaritas and tequila

that will do

 

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