i hit the refresh button but nothing changed

shit

don’t remember last night

but for some reason i shaved my head

 

not that uncommon these days

but since my dad was born in austria

and i’m all muscular from the weights

i look like a neo nazi piece of shit

 

i think i have a hat somewhere

 

not that anyone will be out in this rain

except me

my cat sitting in the window watching

me walk away and thinking,

“he’s really not all that bright is he?”

 

and me pulling my jacket over my head

so i can have a smoke while i walk

the circus clown and the big top

 

i should buy a fucking wig

and dye it orange

 

anyway i pushed myself on the weights today

but started drinking right after the last set

i guess i should eat at some point tonight

walking amid the rain drenched lights

god this is just like every fucking night

 

what would i do with my time

if i suddenly thought that all this mattered

and our presence here meant something?

 

well that won’t be tonight

i’m gonna be somewhere

where you tip the bartender

and then wake up the next evening

and find that you have shaved your empty skull

 

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