Friday, July 8, 2016

yet another pointless poem


this steadfast love is like a dove

soaring in the skies above

 

see how bad poetry can be?

i prefer a fetal beetle

crushed by a fallen tree

 

morrison, morrison

what did you die for?

morrison says,

“nothing at all”

 

set in my ways i never pray

except when i wake from a bender

feeling like dust on a fender

somebody wipe me clean

plants aren’t really green

the color is what light allows

everything is an illusion

 

(bloody red sun of fantastic l.a. – j.d.m.)

 

found a flyer

a modern day crier

the event peaked my interest

even though i know i will never go

 

had a pbnj for breakfast

it’s always good

to have something in your stomach

before your 9 a.m. beer

 

voice mail from a girl i helped unfurl

i could tell she was drunk

the message was a childhood prayer

          to a god

i pressed 7 to delete

 

when the doors opened

everyone filed in

baaing like sheep

mooing like cows

desperate for the entertainment inside

 

i walked by

wearing a shirt that read

even before we die

everything is meaningless

 

(well i woke up this morning

and i got myself a beer – j.d.m.)

 

my cat died

i remembered the time i cried

“i’m so lonely”

he came and curled in my lap

 

l.a. is dripping sap

and no one realizes

they are nothing more

          than excrement

 

(forgive the poor old people who

gave us entry. taught us god in

a child’s prayer in the night – j.d.m.)

 

you know what?

fuck you all

a shadow changes its length

from short to tall

depending on the angle of the sun

everything else said about shadows

is a lie

 

stray dogs beg for a meal

i pour out a bag of potato chips

because in my pantry

there is nothing else to offer

 

morrison, i drank as much as you

maybe more

yet i’m still here

to buy more chips at the store

and another case of beer

did you gets wings

where you once had shoulders

smooth as raven’s claws?

 

angel of death

why did you pass me by?

there wasn’t any lamb’s blood

on my door post

 

if i spent the night in an abandoned

insane asylum

would i be a believer by morning?

heed the warnings i wore

while i was being paddled?

 

(all my friends got flowers in their eyes

but i got none this season

all of last year’s blooms have gone and died

but time don’t give a reason – a.d.)

 

i called her back,

“are you o.k.?”

“not today”

if she had said

“my neighbor is pulling weeds”

i would have proposed marriage

she’s thinking about a baby carriage

and i knew she doesn’t know

that the sun is a hole

ripped in the fabric of the sky

leaking blue onto

a three dimensional canvas

 

wednesday is open mic night

at a place with no name

i never go

well, i went once

i got a standing ovation

from the poets who are

the princes of local print

i fled into the arms of a girl

who wanted to share her bottle

          of whiskey

as things got worse

i felt better

moved to a land of the illiterate

where no one has ever read a poem

 

(cars hiss by my window

like the waves down on the beach

i got this girl beside me

but she’s out of reach –j.d.m.)

 

once i wrote about a boy

who use to play with all the toys

but then i learned how to discern

that i’m not into manly ploys

i like books and making rhymes

stand there silent while they chime

about the manly toys they have

they wouldn’t think that i’m a man

petting cats while words i utter

reaching up to touch the gutter

no interest in the engine size

the perfect poem illusive prize

and don’t get me started

on the novels written

in the middle of last century

 

the bible says to be satisfied

with your wife’s breasts

oh how well the writers knew

the simplicity of men

and when they sinned with women

it was the man who was judged

 

(riders on the storm

into this house we’re born

into this world we’re thrown

like a dog without a bone

an actor out on loan –j.d.m.)

 

while they pontificate on their

          next purchase

i feel the emptiness of the garage

filled with growling men

and reflect on how existentialism

influenced the writings of

james douglas morrison

 

toes on the roadside

thumb in the air

cardboard sign reading

“anywhere but here”

 

did robert frost really write a suicide poem?

stomping in on those sturdy old stumps

choreographing the dance of diction

making us free versers wonder

if we’ve really written a real poem

 

then i pass by a place

that has a statue of mary

facing the corner like a punished child

and its effect is so disturbing

i realized i must be a poet

even if all i really write are

the meanderings of a morose mind

 

‘the meanderings of a morose mind

maybe i’m bright, maybe i’m blind

but i’m not impressed

your exterior is just your best guess

it doesn’t matter who you are

whether you’re seen as a bum

or sold as a star

in the end

death makes all things equal’

 

o.k. that was a really old poem

written around thirty years ago

back to present day

where everything i say

shows i haven’t made any progress

 

just checked my p.o. box

jim thompson’s

the killer inside me was there

i’ll use the paper the doctor wrote

a prescription on

that i never got filled

as a bookmark

 

someone i passed just muttered

“tweaker”

i’ve never touched meth

but i have become a skeleton

i rarely eat

i still walk incessant

and the partying doesn’t help

 

speaking of which

i need a refill for my flask

 

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