Sunday, July 20, 2014

murdering memories


jenny joined a gym

wrestles with weightlessness

for a couple hours every night

 

so i walk to this bar

bring “the death of stars”

a physics book about how stars die

and how the universe will end

unlike the present state of the universe

i am not expanding my horizons

 

this place reminds me of “cheers”

bartender in the middle

with all the fixings’

though most customers occupy

the tables and chairs that surround

 

across from me is a woman

comes in every night

drinks two glasses of wine

leaves

 

you can tell she is drunk

when she enters

as she tries her best to maintain

 

she’s around my age

glory starting to fade

though at one time

she must have stopped

the room with her entrance

 

diamonds dot her landscape

her clothes are not from k-mart

and the cash spills out

of her purse when she goes to pay

 

she shows confusion as she

performs everyday functions

because she is just so drunk

 

tonight i watch her

glance at the huge diamond ring

wonder what it is that brings

on her first drink of the day

 

can we simply be dismissed

with the word “alcoholic”?

 

is this a suicide solution

or the murder of memories

 

sorrows cannot truly be drowned

but that doesn’t stop us from trying

 

i truly hope she doesn’t drive

but she probably does

and one day it will all

come crashing down

when she gets pulled over

or runs over a pedestrian

 

my philosophy takes a sledgehammer

to any idea of an overarching morality

with a longitude and a latitude

and i really have no desire

to go up the this woman and ask

but if i believed in the power of prayer

i would pray for her

 

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