yeah i said it

have you ever been given

a dozen red roses

and went to where the waves

wash ashore

and threw them in?

 

have you ever taken every word

everyone has ever said to you

sewn them together

and realized they were just words?

 

i’m not enlightened

just bored

with your relevance

that claims my ignorance

because i have not named

you the oracle

 

oracle all you want

on this speck of sand

in a desert so vast

that when the wind casts

contrary to the laws of physics

you may want to visit

the area where oracles are orange

 

in short

when you open your eyes

after a night of sleep

after prayers of what to keep

 

another day is not because

it just is

 

and i actually don’t even care what you believe

but your imaginary santa claus in the sky

will not allow you into the sweet by and by

unless you mold me in your image

 

at midnight there is no carriage

no pumpkin and no glass slipper

truth is just a zipper you cannot clasp

it is just what you perceive

and if you would just let me be

i might make silence my home

till then i roam

 

yes i’m somewhere in los angeles

so irrelevant that steam vents

serve more purpose then me

 

is my time piece saying one a.m. or 3

i’m seeing double

and love is nothing but trouble

because love is a four letter word

 

it is not unconditional

but propositional

i can be worthy

but first you must approve

 

where i must turn around

spin and twirl

another oyster without a pearl

 

but your words

um

i mean hateful judgment

because of course

you represent

 

will never edify

even though your scriptures say

you should be humble and encourage

your words discourage

if you represent

then time well spent

is the time i spend

as far away from you as possible

 

yeah it is plausible

that the whole reason i avoid

is that you destroy

 

i will burn

if i do not earn

your conditional love

 

you represent

you are heaven sent

and until i agree

make you all that you need to be

your ego sits on heaven’s throne

 

and your foundation is so weak

it cannot handle when i speak

your hatred is the only  thing

that can reinforce the pillars

 

leave me alone

i roam

where molecular movement

is the only thing that makes sense

 

there is no past, present or future tense

but of course i must suffer recompense

because my thoughts are not your thoughts

and my ways are not your ways

who has known your mind

and who has been your counselor?

 

i do not make your life easier

by just agreeing with the things that will stroke your ego

and you don’t even have to consider me

because i must obviously be deceived

because i am not laying palm branches

before you and your ass

 

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