Saturday, December 16, 2017

memories of the forgotten


the dark streets of decay

are not just words i say

but a lifestyle

 

woke to a darkened sky

had a story in my eye

wrote until i ran out of ink

couldn’t think of an ending

anyway

so i walked to the nearest bar

ordered a double shot

downed it to hasten

intoxication

then slowed down with

one of their 36 oz mugs of beer

when it was absent of

its life saving liquid

i went out on the patio

for a smoke

 

somebody spoke

i wasn’t in the mood

until i understood

it was a girl

whose style made you

notice her brown eyes

and brunette hair

before you noticed her breasts

 

she invoked a light for her smoke

though i suspected she had a lighter

our conversation were trinkets

in store front windows

enticing enough that we both

went back inside

where i ordered us each

a 36 oz mug

 

back on the patio to partake

of more nicotine

a sudden santa ana wind

was making a scene

so we went into the alley

to light our smokes

 

one, maybe two tokes

and her tongue was inside my mouth

i’d barely reciprocated

when her hands were

unfastening my jeans

near a putrid dumpster

i came clean

deep inside the draperies

of her thighs

 

the cigarettes didn’t compare

with the sex we just shared

but we smoked them anyway

 

she kissed my cheek

walked away

i finished my cigarette

drained my flask

walked the opposite way on

the dark streets of decay

 

*

 

returning to my ruins

i’m in rare form

on the verge of being chloroformed

i stopped at a bar

 

the woman whom had earlier

shattered me into shards

was there

 

we stared until she motioned me over

with a jerk of her head

 

before her next sip

she kissed my lips

and i ordered whatever she was having

 

we drank without words

that weary me so

until she said,

“smoke?”

 

they didn’t have a patio

so we were in another alley

i pulled my pack from my pocket

she knocked it out of my hand

slammed me against the wall

i didn’t have to recall

the taste of her tongue

as just another memory

but this time she dropped to her knees

as she, once again, unfastened my jeans

 

i wondered if it was narcissistic

that she could taste herself still on me

 

complete

she retrieved my pack of cigarettes

did a select

of one for her, one for me

i offered my flask

which i had refilled

in the time in-between

the last time it was her and me

 

before she could walk away again

i put my hand behind her head

pulled her tongue into mine

wondering if it was narcissistic

that i could taste myself still on her

 

she felt my phone in my pocket

pressing hard against her

she fished it out

found it was on my music app

“what you been listening to?”

i put a plug in her ear

the other in mine

hit play

yael naim’s cover of “toxic”

saturated

our tongues re-engaged

in a moment so filled with bliss

i felt the audience should experience

the film fading to black

 

*

 

woke in her arms

i could tell it was a hotel

but i didn’t know which one

but the phone had a button

for a direct connect to room service

ordered coffee then handed the phone to her

where she ordered the greasiest breakfast

they could serve

a tall order for this health obsessed city

 

the los angeles sun severed the sections

of the day

as if the windows had no curtains

and i finally learned her name

taking us to the next level of commitment

like slipping a ring on a finger

 

***

 

 

 

 

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