Tuesday, July 11, 2017

the cavalier nature of cold pizza


greasy paper bag

empty of its contents

the crumbs of the tortilla chips

it once held

strewn upon the table top

the styrofoam salsa container

stained with remnants

it’s lonely lid lying nearby

some of its contents

spilt on the copy of “junky”

by burroughs i just bought

and left on the table for another day

the sitting chair is occupied

by empty containers which once held

chinese food

the used plastic fork

has found its way to the hardwood floor

 

the kitchen counter is covered

with empty pizza boxes

and uninhabited whiskey bottles

are strategically spaced at the place

where i took the last sip of their harshness

 

hope sandoval and the warm inventions

new cd

soothes the silence

 

i open my frig

that i thought harbored nothing but beer

and see the last slice of last night’s pizza

i must have just tossed in there

 

one hand grabs a beer

the other grabs a slice

breakfast is served

 

on my book case i notice

two unopened packs of cigarettes

i keep forgetting i have plenty

and buy more

and with a frig full of beer

there’s no need to go to the store

 

maybe i’ll just stay in tonight

pet my cat

peruse tristessa by kerouac

which i also just bought

let empty beer cans

add to the décor

have sex with my hand

while i stare at a picture

of a waterfall that has run dry

its exposed rocks beckoning to the sky

devoid of anything but blue

 

just found a water shutoff notice

on my front door handle

pay or have a putrid toilet

un-showered skin

i toss it on the table top crumbs

down my beer

toss the can in the kitchen sink

grab another from the frig

 

somehow the sunglasses i bought

in santa monica are broke

time for a smoke

balcony with my beer

select from my phone app

“goodnight l.a.”

by counting crows

light up

watch my exhale

create a veil

upon the face of los angeles

 

my pen just broke

i have a coffee cup full of them

but i just lit a smoke

and don’t smoke inside

so will make do

it’s the one i took from the westin

when i was there on june 17th

and used to write all the poems

i recently wrote about her

when i was preferred

hence my attraction tonight

to dried up waterfalls

 

ah

just opened the beer

i’d move to the freezer

fed my cat

who cleaned her plate

and now wants nothing to do with me

a beer this cold

deserves another cigarette

balcony bearing my weight again

guess i won’t be reading any of the books

i bought a couple days ago

 

back into my apartment

that could use a woman’s touch

and the me that longs for

a woman to touch me as well

 

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