Tuesday, April 4, 2017

the sacred seat of sorrow


               (the only way to stay

          poetically strong

          is to intend each poem

          to be your swan song)

 

sliding down the sideburns

of the sands upon the slopes

actually i lost my footing

trying to get down to the beach

crescent moons refuse to illumine

pathways

when you’re me even the sea

is the dark streets of decay

 

black ocean

it’s so dark

when i light my cigarette

the flame seems so bright

it hurts my eyes

 

cold ocean breeze

this angelino in freeze

but i’m listening to sorrowful land’s

“on another’s sorrow”

and i’m inspired to borrow

the embrace of acclimating

to the ecosystem

leave a trail of all i entail

until i reach the end of the beach

wearing nothing but a cigarette

which extinguishes wet

when i pour myself

into the pacific ocean

 

fucking cold

icicles forming on my pubic hairs

i declare and vow to never grow old

in the market place of bought and sold

where you have to barter

hopes, dreams and desires

for a few pieces of coal

for a fire

as they define your needs

and the level of warmth

that should comfort

 

did you know i’m writing

this rhyme in real time?

holding pen and notebook high

jumping up every time

i’m accosted by a wave

 

i will not be saved

by your syllables of sensibilities

when i realized truth is only perceived

i have tried to transcend

all perception

 

but my nerve endings won’t deny

that it’s fucking cold

so i scroll back through

my strewn possessions

till i find my flask

which i have never asked,

“are you the answer?”

i just wrap my lips around

its hardness

and let it cum in my mouth

 

an artist i’ve recently been into

aleah liane stanbridge

the champion of all talent

i googled last night

found she died of cancer

young

years ago

before her career had even begun

 

and tonight i immerse

in living verse

as my tributaries flow

into an ocean

that will never bestow

anything but fossil recollections

and depths which can only by plumbed

by sonar echoes

 

as poseiden laughs at a species

that perceives

when we crawled out of the sea

eons ago

we now consider  

as an accomplishment

 

clothes recaptured

music reattached to my ears

i steer my solitude

into a view

of concrete and intersections

part of the collection

no one has gathered

select cruel youth’s

“hatefuck”

a cigarette stuck

in my cranial orifice

 

l.a. is so indifferent

which is why i will never leave

who else is going to chronicle

like a scholar with a monocle

this ant farm racing

as if haste will hasten

the purpose of existence

 

while somewhere a poet’s subsistence

is emerging from the verging sea

writing poetry

because the only way to exist

is as an individual

and not a residual

of everyone else’s expectations

 

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