Friday, November 25, 2016

post apocalyptic prayers


creative juices flowing

what i’m undergoing

i’ve yet to comprehend

 

bought groceries for

a homeless family

filled the toys for tots bin

 

haven’t been drinking

but cigarettes stinking

as i burn through

a pack a day

 

don’t have much to say

but other’s needs

constantly present themselves

and i help

till sometimes i get worn out

 

found the water

stared through the smoke

of my cigarette

 

pulled out pen and pad

neither happy or sad

but when someone

wants to know why

i help so much lately

my eyes tear and i walk away

 

conversation is so meaningless

 

i think my name is

being passed around

the lips of the homeless

cause they see me

ask for a cigarette

a sandwich

i say yes

 

recently i published

two more books

didn’t take a second look

before finally handing

old words for publication

 

they are no longer me

all i now see

is the moment

and the immediate need

and i don’t even really

know why i’m doing it

 

i just am

and in the depths of

my atheism i wonder

if something isn’t

bringing the need my way

since i’m willing to help

because it just keeps

coming from every angle

 

but at this moment

on this beautiful day

i’m where the pretty

people play by the water

to steal the solace

of a little solitude

poets need time to pen

 

enchanted while watching

a couple make their way

across a field

quite some distance away

 

i haven’t found purpose

i wasn’t looking

i haven’t found belief

i wasn’t searching

 

other’s needs have always

been there

i wasn’t unaware

suddenly i started giving

and all other aspects of living

fell like lifeless leaves

the ground receives

to begin the process

of decomposition

 

i didn’t intend this transition

or purposely put away perdition

i just started rescuing raindrops

while water washed over me

like a flood

 

and in my mind that over analyzes

everything i cannot turn green

the photosynthesis of my thoughts

to understand what brought

this all about

 

and why i no longer sniff

the wind for happiness

but have become content

within the give

 

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