Sunday, September 21, 2014

i drink therefore i am


one moment at a time

is the only way

i know how to live

 

it’s how they say

it should be done

 

i’m not so sure

 

tomorrow is too much

the next tick tock on the clock

is the only dosage of reality

i can handle

 

people pace with purpose

i react to the immediate

physical need

 

and i like to have fun

as i define fun

 

walking round downtown

lights making their late night sound

amid the hustle and bustle

 

drunk 

torn jeans

a double edge knife

always within reach

 

i read the lettering on a window

“coffee, music, art”

comfy chairs all filled

with hands on phones

or laptops on laps

 

i burst into sardonic laughter

and resume walking

 

where's my whiskey flask

tonight it’s been fireball

and i only know the moment

cause that’s all i know how to know

 

 

when asked what i want to do

i can’t construe a comprehensible construct

i don’t believe in fate or luck

just how good it feels to drink and fuck

and walk around unfettered, untethered

in any kind of weather

 

log on to see what critics are saying

about the dark streets of decay

“he needs help”

(when i read that i laughed so hard

i rolled on the carpet)

and check the numerical chart

that tracks the sale of my book

 

i am a boxer without a hook

a writer who mistook

the moment as meaning

 

and one day they will create

a wikipedia page about me

two days after the site has shut down

 

walk around downtown

a universe in decay

is all we have found

 

and conversations with collegiate

shows me that people still dream

that the fabric of existence

isn’t torn at the seams

and even if it is

they believe it can be repaired

 

good

it’s their world

let them share

let them live

let them care

 

i just had a flight of stairs

ask why i still linger

pointing the finger

laughing, “you are old”

 

roam

unfold

bathe in my insignificance

 

and remember this is suppose

to be about moments

moments i am always

too drunk to remember

 

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