Wednesday, April 4, 2018

running in tail chasing my circle


          (those who can’t find anything to live for

          always invent something to die for – lew welch)

 

the blue poem of nothing borrowed

only midnight brings tomorrow

i linger languid, lost, un-layered

when we abyss i’m the surveyor

 

stationary, stagnant, spinning around

with each rising tide i’m losing ground

sandpaper sunshine caresses my face

it’s easy to burn when you’re stuck in place

 

lew welch is watching from north of nevada city

“you know how this ends so why not take pity?”

i keep waiting for change then tell them to keep it

i pray for a whirlwind just so i can reap it

 

the sky is a blur, a wet watercolor of clouds

i soak in depression till i’m well endowed

lately my notebook is unfinished poems

phrases for boredom collecting like coins

 

venturing forth the scenery’s the same

the jungle is concrete, i feel nothing but tamed

writing this i almost have purpose

less like a monkey caged at a circus

 

waiting for food and days i perform

if this satisfies you than you are the norm

slipping on sorrow i land with a thud

the spill is a mixture of saline and blood

 

dipping my bread same time as the savior

the bread was so plain i wanted more flavor

casting off silver won’t equal repentance

after the harvest there’s no mending fences

 

gathering moss without a roll

baking in hell without console

touching the time table blank with defeat

the changes were scheduled, plans were complete

 

events remain folded, i’ve waited a year

rescheduling the schedule, thinking it near

all i’ve acquired is feeling quite dire

wading in waiting i’m so uninspired

 

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