Friday, October 30, 2015

a dice game of someone formerly abused


i hear the screams all in-between the pages of my mind

they’re all i hear both far and near completely intertwined

within the layers of my soul i know does not exist

i want to see things clearly now but all i see are mists

 

obscuring truths deep in my youth where love was ill-defined

a cancer that will never grow eternally benign

and now i feel no one could love the who and what i am

unless i please and turn the keys to be the kind of man

 

that you could love and want around a most exhausting thing

cause every person’s own idea is what i try to bring

and dance with this dichotomy of being who i am

a wounded soul who wants control to be within your hands

 

where i’m informed how to perform to be acceptable

when all i really ever am is just susceptible

to any thought i might be loved that i just roll the dice

for all i want is to be loved and will pay any price

 

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