alone
drinking
from a bottomless beer
old
thoughts creep near
crawl
and scrawl on the walls of my mind
knife
edge resting on wrist
i
want to die
i
have tried
before
but
well
i
guess you can see the result
i
think of how it would affect my daughter
and
i can’t cut
but
i want to die
can’t
tell you why
unless
you have entered this land
you
will never understand
the
inhabitants and where they dwell
go
ahead and swell
ring
the warning bells
and
think your advice matters
i
never said i was right
just
that i want it all to stop
harvest
the crop
that
no one will eat
in
the end there is no grand feast
not
even a tuna fish sandwich
and
that’s why i want to cut
no
euphoria
no
spirit guides waiting
or
demons parading
just
the cessation of being
the
true definition of
eternal
rest
i
will not be a guest
but
i will finally be sober
accomplish
the quieting of my mind
just
don’t give me a spiritual burial
say
i am in a better place
that
god’s love is greater than my weakness
burn
me in flames
eradicate
my existence
do
the world a favor
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